My love,
My life,
My you.
Forever one,
Forever friends,
Forever together too.
The soulmate,
The fiancé,
The husband very soon.
Closer to my heart,
Closer than anyone,
Closer than the moon.
Three years ago today we became near,
Three years ago today we expressed our love,
Three years ago today we embarked on the rest of our lives.
Here's to our love,
Here's to our in sync feelings,
Here's to the rest of our lives together!
Monday, January 30, 2012
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Candy Cane
Luscious red
Peppered with pure white
That first icy lick
Makes the world alright
Swirls of magic
Moving with enticement
The illusion that draws near
Children to peppermint
Dwindling stick
Leaving oh so rapidly
The joyous season does go
To return eventually
Peppered with pure white
That first icy lick
Makes the world alright
Swirls of magic
Moving with enticement
The illusion that draws near
Children to peppermint
Dwindling stick
Leaving oh so rapidly
The joyous season does go
To return eventually
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
The Lonely Year
Trying to stay strong,
But I don't know for how long.
The wound runs deep,
And thus here I weep.
This year has been rough,
There has been no fluff.
Each event has been direct,
My heart just can't connect.
Among those I love,
And I'm the lone gray dove.
What can I do but wait for it to pass,
This year forever cannot last.
But I don't know for how long.
The wound runs deep,
And thus here I weep.
This year has been rough,
There has been no fluff.
Each event has been direct,
My heart just can't connect.
Among those I love,
And I'm the lone gray dove.
What can I do but wait for it to pass,
This year forever cannot last.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
The Greener Grass
The grass is greener on the other side they say.
But along the path I have paved my own way.
Hiked up the mountains and swam through the rivers.
Even made it through the snowy lands with shivers.
Survived the storm of flying words.
Those that so land like swords.
Bared the downpour of the skies above.
Basked in the sunshine and its love.
Seen with awe the tops of tall trees.
Felt with wonder the beautiful breeze.
I have sowed the seeds that have allowed it to be.
The grass where I'm sitting just right for me.
But along the path I have paved my own way.
Hiked up the mountains and swam through the rivers.
Even made it through the snowy lands with shivers.
Survived the storm of flying words.
Those that so land like swords.
Bared the downpour of the skies above.
Basked in the sunshine and its love.
Seen with awe the tops of tall trees.
Felt with wonder the beautiful breeze.
I have sowed the seeds that have allowed it to be.
The grass where I'm sitting just right for me.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Once a Soul Searcher, Always a Soul Searcher
Alas, a year has passed by and I find myself missing the soul searcher. For a short while now something unknown has been pestering me. Not exactly bad, not entirely good either.. Just a feeling of slight anxiety. And I found myself wishing that I could express these feelings, write them out and see what can be made of them. And I wondered where I could write, where I could search and think - and thus have returned to my soul searching days! This time I come with a renewed realization: I have a quest in life - to continually search for the meaning - so how can I ever cease to be a soul searcher? Even if I find one aspect, there are others to be discovered until I reach "nirvana," and since I don't feel I am close to that yet, the soul searcher shall continue in me.
So on to a continuous journey we go.. And let's see where my soul searching heads this time!
So on to a continuous journey we go.. And let's see where my soul searching heads this time!
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Good-bye "Soul Searcher"
This time 2 years ago I embarked upon a journey. I named this journey the "Soul Searcher." Today I am changing my path. I am not the same person I was when I began the journey, and with that change, I must change my medium.
I didn't know who I was when all of this began. All I knew was that I needed to soul search and figure things out. I had no one to divulge my thoughts and innermost feelings with, so I turned to the anonymouse world wide web. I worked through many obstacles, as many instances of happiness too, and developed my inner self.
Things are different now. I no longer have no one to share my thoughts with. I find, of late, that when I find myself sad, or lost in thought, I no longer turn to the "Soul Searcher." I always end up talking to him. And it always makes me feel good. He is the one I have been searching for, and now that he is in my life, I no longer turn to the world.
The purpose of soul searching had been to find myself. What I have found after these two years is not just myself, but my partner too. Today I find that my thirst for soul searching is still alive, but my prupose has changed.
The time has come for me to develop and deepen the sense of self I have found. The exploring has ceased, and the cultivating has begun. My soul searching has shifted focus, and now requires of me personal, private attention.
The transision is over. The "Soul Searcher" has brought me from childhood to adulthood, and for that I am grateful. But now, as an adult, I must maintain the person I am, and want to keep being. Now, as an adult, I am ready to sould search not just for myself, but for my relationships - with him, with the people around me, my family, work, and my place in it all.
So, today I bid you farewell "Soul Searcher," because a bend in my soul searching has come along. You took a young, confused, lost girl, and made her into a confident, calm woman. With a clear sense of self, and the continuing of soul searching, I will now begin the path towards inner peace - the new road to developing my soul.
P.S. Someday, perhaps when soul searching comes upon another bend, I might return to the "Soul Searcher" - or perhaps I might not. I will still have "Books come to life" and keep expressing my opinions on what I read. Someday, hopefully soon, I will start something new, something different.. a blog, of the storyteller, or the poet.. whichever decides to emerge from me :)
I didn't know who I was when all of this began. All I knew was that I needed to soul search and figure things out. I had no one to divulge my thoughts and innermost feelings with, so I turned to the anonymouse world wide web. I worked through many obstacles, as many instances of happiness too, and developed my inner self.
Things are different now. I no longer have no one to share my thoughts with. I find, of late, that when I find myself sad, or lost in thought, I no longer turn to the "Soul Searcher." I always end up talking to him. And it always makes me feel good. He is the one I have been searching for, and now that he is in my life, I no longer turn to the world.
The purpose of soul searching had been to find myself. What I have found after these two years is not just myself, but my partner too. Today I find that my thirst for soul searching is still alive, but my prupose has changed.
The time has come for me to develop and deepen the sense of self I have found. The exploring has ceased, and the cultivating has begun. My soul searching has shifted focus, and now requires of me personal, private attention.
The transision is over. The "Soul Searcher" has brought me from childhood to adulthood, and for that I am grateful. But now, as an adult, I must maintain the person I am, and want to keep being. Now, as an adult, I am ready to sould search not just for myself, but for my relationships - with him, with the people around me, my family, work, and my place in it all.
So, today I bid you farewell "Soul Searcher," because a bend in my soul searching has come along. You took a young, confused, lost girl, and made her into a confident, calm woman. With a clear sense of self, and the continuing of soul searching, I will now begin the path towards inner peace - the new road to developing my soul.
P.S. Someday, perhaps when soul searching comes upon another bend, I might return to the "Soul Searcher" - or perhaps I might not. I will still have "Books come to life" and keep expressing my opinions on what I read. Someday, hopefully soon, I will start something new, something different.. a blog, of the storyteller, or the poet.. whichever decides to emerge from me :)
Monday, March 8, 2010
Not here, Nor there
I have a habit - which I know I'm not alone in - of listening to music while driving. So, as usual, while driving home tonight I was listening to my favorite tunes, when this bittersweet melody known as "Yeh jo des hai tera" from the hindi movie Swades came on - things changed for me. Now, I'm not a very emotional person. So everytime I do get emotional - or emotions, haha - I find that an enlightened realization comes out of it!
Tonight, that song brought tears to my eyes. I immediately wanted to know why - and on the fifteen minutes left until home, this is what I came up with to understand the emotion, and to ease it away:
The song's main line translates into something like "this is your country, your own country, there is a bond that cannot break" - and I wondered, which country was I feeling this emotion for? And I realized, it was the lack of one that affected me most. I was born in one country, and have spent 15 years in another; one I can officially be called a citizen of, and the other I still hold citizenship rights in. But does that all make any difference? They both treat me the same - they give me the illusion of acceptance, when in reality I don't fit in either. This thought - of course - just proceeded to make me sadder (as the song continued gently in the background).
A voice inside my head said something then, it said, "Perhaps you belong to the world" - This was something to think about. I pondered on this and realized that through all my soul searching and buddhist reading, I should know better than to be sad at having no attachments to any given country. The whole purpose of meditation is to let go of attachments - and here I was upset I didn't have any. Maybe the voice had a point - maybe I do belong to the world - or rather, put a bit better, the earth. I belong to the earth - as does everyone - yet most get caught up in divisions that are ultimately man-made. I believe in nature, and nature doesn't define any boundaries - it doesn't tell me that one is your country, and the other is not. They are both mine to belong in, and neither are mine to belong in - the whole earth is open for me.
A sense of relief flooded through me. The phrase "all is well" came to mind and made me laugh. Silly me! This was a blessing in disguise - not belonging to any one place - it allowed me to belong to the earth - the earth that gives me my true life. I had been wondering about my house lately - my parents were thinking of moving from a house I have spent practically my whole life in. What would it feel like to not have a home that held all childhood memories? I realized that although that sadness would not disappear, it would diminish with time. And knowing that I am of this earth - and not of here or there - makes me feel that no matter where I live, memories and people are what will make it home!
Tonight, that song brought tears to my eyes. I immediately wanted to know why - and on the fifteen minutes left until home, this is what I came up with to understand the emotion, and to ease it away:
The song's main line translates into something like "this is your country, your own country, there is a bond that cannot break" - and I wondered, which country was I feeling this emotion for? And I realized, it was the lack of one that affected me most. I was born in one country, and have spent 15 years in another; one I can officially be called a citizen of, and the other I still hold citizenship rights in. But does that all make any difference? They both treat me the same - they give me the illusion of acceptance, when in reality I don't fit in either. This thought - of course - just proceeded to make me sadder (as the song continued gently in the background).
A voice inside my head said something then, it said, "Perhaps you belong to the world" - This was something to think about. I pondered on this and realized that through all my soul searching and buddhist reading, I should know better than to be sad at having no attachments to any given country. The whole purpose of meditation is to let go of attachments - and here I was upset I didn't have any. Maybe the voice had a point - maybe I do belong to the world - or rather, put a bit better, the earth. I belong to the earth - as does everyone - yet most get caught up in divisions that are ultimately man-made. I believe in nature, and nature doesn't define any boundaries - it doesn't tell me that one is your country, and the other is not. They are both mine to belong in, and neither are mine to belong in - the whole earth is open for me.
A sense of relief flooded through me. The phrase "all is well" came to mind and made me laugh. Silly me! This was a blessing in disguise - not belonging to any one place - it allowed me to belong to the earth - the earth that gives me my true life. I had been wondering about my house lately - my parents were thinking of moving from a house I have spent practically my whole life in. What would it feel like to not have a home that held all childhood memories? I realized that although that sadness would not disappear, it would diminish with time. And knowing that I am of this earth - and not of here or there - makes me feel that no matter where I live, memories and people are what will make it home!
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